*Smile*...
Went on a shopping spree today with my best friend. We both bought "school bags" to prepare for our new school year. Ha... some bag it is!
It felt so great to just go out and have fun today. We actually showed quite a bit of self-constraint today, and didn't buy everything we saw!
A bunch of us are going to do that walk against the passing of Article 23. The funny thing is, that this "bunch" consists of 5 Brits, 2 New Zealanders, 3 Scots, 2 Aussies... and Me, the Canadian... and we have NO IDEA exactly what this Article 23 means. We figure we'd just go and walk and show some support... and get some exercise. Anyone else interested?
Weird thing happened today... I looked at my stats page, and noticed that I'm getting hits from people searching on Google. It's never happened before... I find it quite weird... no?
Right... gotta prepare for another day of work. Phonics class tomorrow. Grrr....~

*W.H.O.A.*...
Holy moly! Yesterday, was payday.. and I knew the amount I was going to make... so I didn't bother to check my account to verify. I got the payslip today... and I got a GRATUITY! Yay! I totally didn't expect it, because I didn't think I was going to get it... but I guess it came with the contract I took over... WOOHOO! I'm so happy... I think I might actually splurge and buy the more expensive of the 2 phones...
We had Open Day today at school... and the kids were TOTALLY different when their parents were around. They went NUTS! I almost went nuts myself trying to get them under control...
Hmm... I'm thinking... maybe I'll go on holiday instead of buying that phone...
Gotta eat... I'm starvin'~

*Cough*...
Games... But I think it's justifiable when we take a look at the big picture and see the pay-off.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a game-player... I'm just reminded of something my aunt once told me and something that happened several years ago...
I'm not one to play games. I don't see the need to, unless you're a businessman and you need the edge to get ahead of your competitors. I don't really see much wrong to it, so long as you don't hurt peoples' feelings on the personal level... So... strictly business games.
My aunt once told me that I must learn to "play" with men's minds once in a while. By this, she didn't mean "use 'em and screw 'em". She just meant that occasionally, a woman must distance herself to make herself less available in order to allow her partner to realise what she means to him.
I noticed someone's behaviour just a little while ago which reminded me of this... (*grin*) Anyhoo...
Oh... I've gotten several requests to see what the phones I'm deciding on look like. Here's the Siemens SL55, and here's the Motorola 388. The Motorola is bigger, but still almost the same size as my current phone (Ericsson)... but it's a PDA/Phone! That's what's drawing me towards that phone... since I smashed my last PDA... I can't believe I've gone through 2 PDAs already... *scheiss*...
Oh... I just got this new CD. It's "Maksim: The Piano Player". It's pretty cool, if you close yourself up in a dark room and play it full blast. The guy's amazing with "Flight of The Bumblebee" (Rimsy-Korsakov). It's classical, but infused with techno (not hardcore though). Pretty neat.
Crap... Gotta get back to my report cards. It's so hard to think of creative and positive ways to say "you child's really SLOW"...~

*Gasp*...
Yes... I'm still alive! Last night was... tiring... *ahem* Eh... nothing happened, just went out for dinner, came home for a bit before going out for some drinks... no biggie.
What a jam-packed day I had again today! I was invited to some Aveda concept seminar today... and it was so cool! I met some really neat people, and I got a free laser treatment (though... I don't see a difference). I only bought 2 things, but I got a load of samples to try out... so much fun!
Worked a little today... then after work, Aunt Agnes invited me to her place for dinner... and EAT I DID! She's this amazing cook! She totally reminds me of Joy's mum (smiles!), and everytime I'm over at her place... I end up feeling sick from all the food...
We had shanghai dumplings tonight, and she taught me to eat it with some soy sauce, vinegar (chinese vinegar) and garlic... Ugh... I have garlic breath now... I don't dare go near anyone now... yuck-yuck.
Back to my report cards... and I've got some shopping to do tomorrow. Going to get my new phone tomorrow... I'm actually still deciding between the Motorola PDA-Phone, or the Siemens SL55... Decisions, decisions...~

*Huh?*...
Um... I'm really not quite sure about this new Radiohead CD (Hail To The Thief)... I'm trying, dude... I'm TRYING! Seriously, it's not my cup of tea. Some of the tracks are actually freaking me out. The sound is quite cool, and I love the beat on 1 or 2 of the tracks... but I think it's music that's best suited when one's... uh... happy? I think I'm going to stick to things a little more upbeat.
I finally caved in today, and bought the new Harry Potter book. It was actually quite cheap. Page One's still got it on discount, and I think I paid only HKD 150 for it, which is a pretty good deal... I'm tired, but I'm not sleeping tonight... I've got to finish it tonight... the suspense is killing me... I'm dying to find out who dies!
Right... time to get a-crackin' on the book.
Oh! My back's so much better! I bought an exercise ball yesterday, and I've been doing some stretches and stuff on it, and I felt a big snap in my back this morning... and my back's almost back to normal! Tonight's (Wed) back on, guys! Meet y'all at LKF first! Yee-HA!~

*Uh*...
Yeah... guys... It's NOT a good idea to all try and call me on the same day. The sudden influx of phone calls has actually managed to bust my phone. For some reason, my phone cannot handle the amount of calls coming in, and all my calls are jumping to my voicemail. So... if you're trying to get a hold of me, just leave a message and I'll call you back... for some reason, my phone doesn't want to ring today. Ugh... I guess I'm going to HAVE to buy that new phone... (*smile*)~

*F.A.T.*...
My life seems to evolve around this topic. Seriously, I'm not completely satisfied with how I look, but I'm ok with my body because I'm healthy and (relatively) fit (except for my pulled muscle in my back). Anyways, I came across this article on CNN, and honestly, it's hard to believe that there's an obesity problem around the world when you're living in HK. This is the city of scrawny, flat-chested, pasty-white people with ion-straight hair and really strange clothes (men and women alike). The amount of money that goes into slimming treatments is astonishing. It costs about HKD 20,000 on average for a month of slimming (CAD 4000)... It's insane! The slimming treatments just require you to lie there, as the machines exercise for you. Isn't that insanity?
I get so worked up when the topic of "fat" comes up. It's definitely because I get irritated that people value appearances so highly and seem to disregard the importance of character and personality...
I'm so grateful that I've found some really great people that see me as I am... Otherwise, I would've been even more miserable this year in the land of thin. Being fit is one thing, but being constantly reminded that you're a size 6 when everyone else is a size 0?? I don't really get that...
Gosh... I'm getting a flood of phone calls today... What's up with Tuesdays? It seems like everyone remembers that I exist on Tuesdays, but not other days of the week. I've only had my phone on for an hour, and I've had 15 calls already. What's up with that? Actually... It's probably because it's WEDNESDAY tomorrow! Too bad my back's out, otherwise I'd shake my bootie with y'all tomorrow! Maybe I'll just pop in and pay my pal Joe a visit... SMILES!~

*eeeeeeeeeeeewwww*...
So disgusting, so GROSS!
I understand now why HK people don't have great postures and don't hold their heads up high when they walk.... they get hit by gross things dripping from up high! Eeew... I've been nursing my back, and I'm only comfortable when I'm walking ram-rod straight. I was walking to work, walking with my head held high (as always, ha)... and a huge splash of water landed on my cheek... yuck... so gross...
My back is now killing me. I was moving chairs after my lesson today, and something went wrong. I almost fell over because my left leg went numb. It's better now, but still weak. I've got to see a chiropractor soon... I hate that I'm having trouble walking... I feel like an old woman.
Got loads to do... Ta.~

*Ow*...
That masquerade ball thing I went to was really bad. I'm glad I wore what I wore, and didn't bother to really dress up. I just wore a denim pantsuit with green cross-stitching with a little bit of crystals on it. The other people wore some really... um... questionable things.
Anyways... My auntie Grace brought her son along, and I jumped around with him most of the night.... yeah... did I mention that he's SIX? That kid is like a human energizer bunny... I hurt my back jumping around with him though, 'cause I was wearing 3 1/2 inch heels... ow...
I played another wicked round of golf today. I played a round with my dad and two of his friends, and it felt really good out-driving those 3 men! I now understand that whole Annika Sorenstam thing. Yay, women golfers!
I had a really great dinner tonight. My dad's friend John, took us to this p'tit home-style japanese restaurant... and it was amazing! I've never had japanese food like that. It's so authentic, that they serve REAL wasabi. Not that tube or powdered stuff... and wow, was it good. I've only read and heard about real wasabi, but I've never actually tried it... and if you taste it, you'd never think that it was wasabi. The taste is so mild... and... yum! It doesn't really have a kick to it, like that fake tube stuff...
I'm knackered... I have to sleep... Ta.~

*Hmmm*...
I just read one of Sam's recent blogs. He talks about how he may have been taking things for granted lately, with God and with Kat... This made me think and reflect on the various aspects of my life, and if I've been taking things for granted. The answer is a big, resounding YES. I have definitely been taking things for granted ever since I moved to HK last year. It was so easy for it to happen, because everything was going my way. But, I think in one area... someone else is taking me for granted, without really realising it. But then... it takes two, so I suppose I have been allowing it to happen.
Gosh... it's really time to sleep now. Nite.~

*Oh*...
I never quite realised why I liked the movie "Notting Hill" so much (Julia Roberts, Hugh Grant). I just watched "Roman Holiday" (Audrey Hepburn, Gregory Peck), and it's finally hit me why I liked the former movie so much. Growing up, I watched a lot of "old" movies: "Rear Window", My Fair Lady", "Sabrina", "High Society"...etc... and Roman Holiday was one of my favourites, but the only thing that I didn't like was the ending because I grew up with the notion that the guy always gets the girl. It didn't occur to me that the writers of "Notting Hill" may have been inspired by "Roman Holiday", until I watched the ending of the movie again. When Hugh Grant goes to the press conference at the end of "Notting Hill", he wins back the movie star's heart... In "Roman Holiday", the journalist doesn't get the princess at the end of the press conference... how sucky is that?
Got my hair trimmed today, and (I think) I managed to persuade my stylist to use my hair at the Aveda workshop next week. Gotta sleep now, work again tomorrow! Ta.~

*laughs*...


"Could you look me in the eye and tell me that you're happy now?
Would you tell it to my face, or have I been erased?
Are you happy now? Are you happy now?" - are you happy now, michelle branch

Haha... (Lui: I'm serious, 180 pounds of solid muscle)...
Still talking about Wednesday night. I don't think the girls are ever going to let me forget my stupidity that night. I remember everything... until I left the Mule... then, it was all a blur. I remember up 'til running into Paddy... then... somehow I was home. I think I must've missed out about an hour in between. Kinda like watching Matrix 2... I missed out whole portions of that movie...
Still nothing new. I'm busy writing up report cards now. I'm glad I've got much smaller classes this time, the last round of reporting was really tiring...
Hmm... Oh yeah... I'm going to this Masquerade Ball tomorrow... and for some reason, I don't feel like dressing up. For those of you who know me, you'll know that's really strange, because given the opportunity, I'm always the first one to jump into a dress. What is wrong with me? I've also pretty much given up on buying clothes... I haven't bought any clothes for... a month now... WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?? I think I'm just going to pull out one of my "emergency" dresses to wear tomorrow... I really don't feel buying a new dress... urgh...
Right.. back to those reports... Gotta think of creative and positive ways to say... bad things...~

*scheiss*...
Last night was a lot of fun. Here's a big shout-out to Amanda, Alan, Steve, Trudie, Claire, Lui, Gilad, Denise, Tamzin...Joe (smiles)! Gosh guys... I don't think I could do that again for a while. I remember running into a friend (Patrick) and then the next thing I knew... I was hanging out with him at Mes Amis... Um... did I ditch you guys? I'm so sorry! Crap... I owe y'all a drink for that...
I was violently ill this morning. I swear old age is catching up to me. I used to be able to go out and be fine to go to work the next day! Good thing was that I didn't have a hang over... so I was alright when Teresa gave me a desperate call to sub at KJS.
Um... what else is new? Not much, I suppose... Just trying to sort out my, um... "feelings" with someone... It's hard! How does one know when what they feel are true feelings?
Ok... no more on that subject... it's "classified"... for now... (=P)
Anyhoo... going back to not going out for a while... Next Wednesday night again, everyone! No excuses! *gasp*~

*Grrrrrrr*...
i didn't win... why? because i got HUNGRY! i'm not kidding, i'm dead serious. i was leading all the way through to the 9th hole, then it all fell apart because I started getting hungry (J - you're lucky my lack of sleep didn't affect my game otherwise you'd never hear the end of it...).
i can't play with those women in competition... they're so slow and finicky! my tee-time was delayed for 30 minutes, and then... for the whole game, the 2-ball (two flights ahead of us) were playing like snails in need of coffee. there were 2 empty holes ahead of them at any given time! and because of their slowness, it took us 3 and a half hours to play a round that would normally take us 2 and a half hours.... grrr.... so, in total... my flight was set back an hour and a half, which meant that i missed lunch!! i was so hungry that i just threw my game out the window, so i could rush back to the clubhouse to grab a bite... it was NOT a pretty sight. so hungry... SO HUNGRY!
i'm so sun-burnt... i didn't expect the sun to come out today. the observatory predicted that it was going to be raining and cloudy, so i didn't slather on the sun-screen... BIG MISTAKE... my arms are looking like cooked lobster meat again... and so painful... *sob*
gotta sleep... gotta sleep... got a HECK of a day planned for tomorrow... i'm going to lay on the beach in my new 'two-piece', to try and even out my tan... then it's ladies' night! a bunch of us are going out en masse... woohoo!~

*that warm, fuzzy feeling*...
i love my job. although there are days when i may want to hang myself because my students are "rambunctious and precocious", overall... i really do love it. there are moments when the little ones look at you and think you're the smartest and coolest thing in the world, that make it all worthwhile. i had one of those moments today. amanda and i had come up with this idea of re-enacting a story right there in the classroom, instead of just reading a story to the children and showing them pictures. it's a lot of hard work setting up, but in the end... it all comes together, and it's the most awesome thing i've ever seen. this story in particular, is an american-indian story of how butterflies came to be. it tells of how an indian "brother" put: colourful feathers, flowers, leaves, grass, golden corn, sunshine and bird songs into a bag and when the children came to open them, butterflies came out.
i told the story to six 4-year olds today, just for fun. i put those things in a bag and used gold glitter for sunshine. there's actually a double-bag thing happening. hidden in the bag already, are 6 paper butterflies on a string and the "ingredients" are actually placed in a plastic bag hidden by the larger outside sack. when i pulled the butterflies out at the end of the story, the little ones looked at me with such awe in their eyes... it was so cute! little elizabeth asked me if it was the "sunshine" that was the magic powder and turned everything into the butterflies. they all think of me as like a God now... and that i'm some sort of magician... gosh... the looks on their faces was just priceless...
i should go to sleep... but i'm a bit nervous. the big competition's in the morning. i went for my last training session tonight, and i'm in pretty good form. i've got the accuracy bit down, but i'm not really sure about the distance thing because i've only gotten 1 and a half rounds in on the course because of the rain. i hope there's rain tomorrow morning, because i only know the course when it's partly flooded (oops?).
gosh... i've got butterflies in my tummy... i've still got to decide whether i want to use the driver on the 288 yard hole and drive to 240, or lay-up with a 7-wood and pitch it 90 yards... problem is... if i overshoot with the driver, my ball ends up INSIDE the clubhouse.... maybe i'll lay it up.
right... please pray for me! i'll let y'all know how it goes. elleana won last year with 36 points (stableford), i got 33 points in my practice round... i'll be looking for 40 points tomorrow to be in contention... yikes...~

*depletion*...
is it possible to run out of the force that pulls us towards our destiny? i just watched a movie about how fate ran out between 2 people who loved each other very much. it was such a quietly powerful movie, and so incredibly moving. with every relationship we enter into, be it with an acquaintance, a friend or a partner, this relationship will end at some point in time. does this then mean that the force that pulled us together has run out? someone once told me that people come into your life for: A) a reason, B) a season, C) a lifetime. each person brings a lesson with them into your life. i have met many people who have come into my life for a reason, but i have yet to reach a point in my life where more people begin coming into my life for a season and lifetime. for this to happen, i must be at a point in my life where i am able to share more, grow and learn. gosh... does this make any sense??
they say that "love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant"... i totally agree with this, which is probably why i'm so reluctant to open myself to love again. people say that i'm being stupid, but i just think i'm being realistic. i'm beginning to see how much more important it is to be with friends, than to be spending the majority of my time with just one person. i have a feeling i'm going to be getting a lot of flack about this from certain people in the next 24 hours... oh well... chacun a son gout!~

*epiphany*...
everything came together this morning. i know what i want, and i'm going to get what i want. i can't get side-tracked so easily...
so... it's father's day today, and neither of my parents are talking to me. i know why my dad's not talking to me, but i have no idea why my mum's not talking to me. ugh... i don't need this on top of all the crap i'm going through. i guess the good thing that's coming out of all this, is that i'm FINALLY getting some peace and quiet without my mum annoying the heck outta me. i had such a hard time last week planning my lessons because my mum kept bothering me with her stupid little things.
sooo... oh. here's a big HELLO to myko. thanks for the chat in the wee hours of the morning! hope that charity ride went well! i'm going to say this again... i really miss life over there! and if you see my sis again, just go over and say HI to her!
gotta run. going to chill with some pals. ta~

*ahem*...
Ha ha... hee hee... Someone forwarded this to me today, and thought that it would remind me of someone. I racked my brain, because I didn't really quite get it... well... anyways... I then got a second email from the same person... and it wasn't until then that I realised it's not the weinie that's supposed to conjure up an image, but the way the guy dances... haha... I know it's mean, but I know exactly WHO you're talking about! Anyhoo... I thought I'd share this forward with y'all, because we can always do with a good laugh any time.
I had such a hard time getting through work today. I was so exhausted, and just really didn't want to work..
I'm completely done with my program at HKU now. I got all my papers back on Friday, and it was weird... because the paper that I thought was the worst, got the highest grade. I hate to confess this, but that 2500 word paper was written in 2 hours. I had 2 papers due that day, and I thought I would just wing it and hope for the best. I had all the articles already, but no real direction. The only thing I had going for me was the opening, where I quoted Darwin from "Origins of Species"... Gosh, I really question this program. The papers I actually paid attention to, I got miserable marks in, and the papers I didn't really have time for... did well... um.... huh? What's up with that?
Oh heck, I'm done with it. It was a good experience, in a way. I managed to learn a lot about what not to do in classrooms, but I've also learned how to be really creative in classrooms. I've never been able to think up so many ideas for lessons before.
So... I've just got to get through the summer now.... then I'll be back in my element come end of August. Can't wait to see y'all again!~

*sob*...
I've lost my ring!
And I got into a huge fight with my dad... it's a long story, and it's about dinner on father's day. I don't really feel too rotten because I know it's not my fault, but I've been taking a lot of crap from my parents lately, and I was just fed-up. I still feel a little rotten though.
Ugh... gotta go to sleep... I can't believe I lost my ring... *sob*~

*um... love?*...
Still listening to "Out Of Vein" (Third Eye Blind)... and boy oh boy, you guys should read the lyrics! Practically the whole album's about this dude's break-up. Talk about being bitter and hanging on to the past... whoa. Though, from a girl's point of view... it's kinda sweet that a guy is THAT hung up on a girl... but freaky at the same time. Do guys really have feelings? Oh, sorry... my bad... guys DO have feelings... when they get DUMPED! (I'm getting the beats tomorrow aren't I?) I have a feeling that I'm getting a lot of hate-mail coming my way...
I finally got a round in today, though I got caught in a huge 5-minute down-pour. Not too bad, I came back with 33 points on my first round on this course in... 3 years? Last year's winner won with 36 points, so it looks like I have a really good shot at winning this... If I play a complete bogey-round, I get 38 points... See, I don't understand why people want low handicaps? You're at such an advantage in competitions... I'm not a croc though, I just don't play enough to have my handicap lowered... it's the lowest it's ever been though...
I've got a bunch of butterflies to draw and colour for Saturday. Plus... I've got a jam-packed day tomorrow... Back to the university for most of the day, dash to DWB for another practice round, then it's girl's night out again... I have a life! I have a life!~

*boo*...
So... on top of the SARS, the Dengue Fever and what-not... We've also got ANTHRAX in Hong Kong. ANTHRAX!~

*omigosh*...
I just checked the draw for my competition on Tuesday... I've been drawn to play in the last flight... Talk about pressure... Yikes. But I've laid out my game plan, and I'm going to test it out tomorrow. It's 18-holes Stableford, so I don't really have to worry much since my handicap's so high. Gosh... I'm way too competitive. Anyways... I'm tee-ing off at 10:45 on Tuesday, so if you're free... come cheer me on! Or you could just pray and keep your fingers crossed the whole time for me... I promise I'll throw a huge party if I win...


"I sit and wait. Does an angel contemplate my faith? And do they know the places where we go when we're gray and old? ...Thoughts running through my head, and I feel the love is dead..." - Angels, Robbie Williams.


Love doesn't exist... to me anyways. It died a while ago. I'm alright with that... just so long as trust, respect and fidelity still exist in our vocabulary. I'm glad it died though, because trust, respect and fidelity are so much more important...
Gotta sleep now. *Smooooooch*~

*squeak*...
Yes, I'm still awake. It's just after 4am, and I'm still awake. Don't get me wrong... I'm exhausted and tired, but I can't sleep because it's pouring outside and thundering like crazy. I'm a weinie... thunder and lightning freaks me out. The thunder I can stand for a little while, but after a while, it starts freaking me out. The lightning I can't stand AT ALL. I've cocooned myself by burrowing under my covers and surrounding myself with my stuffed animals and down pillows... I know I'm a weinie!
I'm going to stick my Nike earplugs in my ears now and wear my eye mask... hopefully... it'll work. Nite!~

*Blinded*...


"So when I see you, you know all the things I've done.
Well I'm blinded, like I'm staring down the sun.
When I see you, it's like I'm staring down the sun..." - Blinded (When I See You), Third Eye Blind


Someone told me today that Third Eye Blind's new album was mostly recorded on the first take to retain a raw and spontaneous sound. I admit, it's quite a refreshing listen... Though... I'm still convinced that they still sound the same (sorry, pal). I'm still a bit suspicious of the lyrics being deeper than they seem, though I LOVE this song! (Blinded)...
My training schedule's been shot. It's been pouring during the day, so I haven't been out to practice. I managed to fit in a session with my coach last night... I practised a bit too much though, and I think I may have pulled a muscle in my arm. I'm keeping my fingers crossed, and hope that I can at least get in 1 round tomorrow... otherwise, my chances of placing first or second are shot. Gosh, I'm competitive... yikes.
I'm watching the late news now... and I'm a bit shocked about this new "Monkey-pox" business. Those prairie dogs are so cute! I can't believe they're spreading some disease as ugly as monkey-pox! Eeeeew.
Gotta go shower... I'm getting home later and later these days. What is WRONG with me? If you can't find me, chances are... I'm in LKF or Wanchai... Oops?~

*Hrmph*...
More procrastination. I'm trying hard to put some stuff off 'til... tomorrow. Thanks to my friends, I'm able to find loads of ways to procrastinate... This is the latest from Sam:


What Matrix Persona Are You? - Quizilla.

You are Trinity, from "The Matrix."
Strong, beautiful- you epitomize the ultimate
heroine.



Mais bien sur! Who else could I be?

*chacun a son gout*...
I graduated exactly a year ago, almost to the hour... June 7th, 2002. I remember that day vividly, as clear as though it were today. It was a beautiful day, and I was teetering on my 3 and a half inch heels across the stage and hooded by the Chancellor (luck was with me). A year later, I find myself with more experience and a little bit wiser in the ways of the world... and much better with my heels.
I've been doing a lot of thinking in the past couple of days. I've stayed away from people and just concentrated on myself. I've made several decisions on several things that have been dogging me of late, and I'm relieved that I've decided this way. I'm no longer going to pursue what my heart has been telling me to do. I've lost too much sleep over it, and things have got to end. It's not going anywhere, and I'm just being stupid. I'm just going to listen to my head and just... be. Does this sound too vague?
June 7th... a very important date to me. I got my hard-earned Psych degree AND I came to my senses on this day, albeit different years. Better late than never though. I wonder what's to come the next time it rolls around?
The posts are going to be sporadic this week, I'm playing in a competition on the 17th... INTENSE training schedule next week. Come cheer me on!
Hugs and kisses to y'all out there...~

*...*
it's almost 5 in the wee hours of the morning, and i'm still awake. i find myself crying in bed. i don't know why, but i'm feeling really miserable and alone right now. i really don't know why, but it's almost as if the reality of all that has happened to me in the past 2 years is really hitting me at full-force. i miss so much. i don't know, it might be that i'm feeling homesick... i just want to go home right now. i miss being myself. i'm finding it harder and harder to be myself in this city because people don't understand why i'm so outspoken and why i feel so strongly about the things i do. they don't understand that i don't really care about money. my parents know how much i make and they think that i've either saved up loads or spent loads, but they don't know i've donated almost half of what i earn.
i'm sick of taking crap from people. i refuse to take any more crap. after talking to my best friends, they've pretty much encouraged me to follow my decision on being independent. it's a big deal for me, because i'm only beginning to recognise what i have to offer and that i'm maybe better than what i give myself credit for. on the other hand though, i still have hope deep down in me that someone will come, whip me up in his arms and save me.
perhaps i'm in the middle of some identity crisis. or maybe it's just that i think too much. i don't know, but what i do know is that i miss home - not where my "stuff" is, but where my heart is...~

*oooohhhhhh*...
uh, no. get your mind outta the gutter...
i think i may have had a li'l too much fun tonight. remember how i said i was pissed about something? well, i went out tonight to drink my sorrows away and to prove a point. a couple of us went to Soho for dinner then we headed to wanchai for drinks. (Amanda: I still think Alan should've stayed with his 6 feet "plank")...
the main bit lasted 'til about 11:30... the lamma people had to be off. i ended up running into friends and just got home... not good... and i've gotten hooked again on an old habit of mine too... bad...
ugh... this is probably pretty incoherent, but i can't be bothered to edit it. glad i went out tonight though... loves all 'round! see y'all on wednesday night... and thursday too??... i'm getting old... probably not...~

*Cluck*...
Guys: I'm such a chicken. I chickened out of that thing I was going to do. *Grrrr*
I had a great conversation with Joy though (Hi girl!). Gosh, if it weren't for this SARS thing, I'd be on the first flight to Taipei to see you, girl! Can't wait until we all get together again!
I'm exhausted... I can't believe I was such a chicken. I feel like kicking myself. Hope y'all have more courage than I do. Ta.~