*Insomniac*
I can't sleep. Recent events have been replaying in my mind.
I've been trying to forget about everything that has happened in the past 2 months, but it's virtually impossible to do. The more I try to drown myself in work and forget things, the more powerful the feelings when I do recall recent events.
I love my lifestyle and wouldn't change it for the world, but sometimes... it really gets to me that I can't maintain longer and more meaningful relationships because of the life I've chosen to lead. It's not just dating, but relationships with friends too. I don't stay put in one place for more than 2 years at a time, and I have no current plans to do so yet.
I'm definitely looking for a job right now, but I'm also looking forward to doing more graduate studies. Am I insane for wanting to do more studies, instead of settling down a little more and maybe attempt a more grounded life?
A part of me wants to settle down a little and maybe get married... but the other part screams for selfishness and personal development.
Urgh. What a pain. Is this what it's like to think?~