Test...

"It can happen to anyone of us, anyone you think of. Anyone can fall, anyone can hurt someone they love..." - Gareth Gates, Anyone of Us

Yeah... sappy song, equally sappy lyrics... but it seems to articulate what I'm trying to say.
No, I'm not hurting anyone and I'm not cheating on anyone... but something happened today that made me do a re-evaluation about how I'm doing now... after a rather turbulent 2 years.
I'm not shy when it comes to talking about my feelings (well... sometimes anyways). Two (three?) years ago, I made a mistake and fell hard for someone. I had poured everything I had into that relationship, only to be burned very badly by how things turned out. I never got the closure I needed and I never got any explanation about what had happened. In short, I got really hurt. I did a lot of crazy things in the wake of this incident. Shortly after this, my grand-dad got sick. His illness, then eventual death, seemed to magnify all the feelings I had during this period of time. For the longest time, because I had no real explanation or reason as to why all this happened to me in one go... I just felt really alone. I turned to friends around me at the time, and I also got into a "wrong" group at the time too. I did a LOT of stupid things. I was really lost and just... broken. It really wasn't until recently that it's hit me that I'm really not going to get any closure about this stuff. It really CAN happen to anyone of us. It wasn't a "me" thing.
So... I'm saying all this because today, I saw this person's mother. I didn't have time to go over to say hello because I had to dash off for a tee-time, and I regret not going over to say hello. I feel a bit guilty about this. When I saw her across the room, a floodgate opened. I had a million feelings hit me all at once. I do still feel some hatred and anger towards the whole thing, but I also feel a bit of pride. I'm doing a LOT better now than I did then... and I've learned to not act so impulsively anymore. I just... want to move on.
So I guess what I'm trying to say is this: I passed the test...~