*Uh-Oh*
I have an assignment due tomorrow. It's not difficult, just a lot of thinking... and a bit of statistics too (yuck). After a lot of fiddling around with the numbers, I think I've got the numbers side of my little study sorted out. I just have to write it all up now...
Anyways... The problem with thinking is that I get carried away with the thinking. I start off just thinking about my research, then the implications... then I get carried away with too many other thoughts. More often than not, I start "reflecting"... and "reflecting" sometimes isn't good - especially when it leads me down the road of doubt.
It doesn't help that I'm listening to the "Love Actually" soundtrack. I'm hooked on the Joni Mitchell song. It's got me thinking back on what I've done and how far I've come. The doubt part in this, comes from remembering promises of the past - especially the one that promised "I will never do anything to hurt you". More specifically - "You are heavens more important than...myself". Makes me wonder what the HECK was going through that person's head. Actually, more importantly... what the HECK was going through MY head when I BELIEVED that?
Do I look at things from "both sides now"? I think growing up means doing just that. I still have lots of doubts - especially in myself, but I guess I should also learn to have faith.
Ironic... My present study is on "Noticing and Self-Repair". Ha. Pity that the Noticing and Self-Repair in my study is specifically in the production of speech utterances. I should look into doing a study in "Noticing a**holes and Self-Repairing a broken heart".
I'm not bitter... just full of doubt now about everything.~