*Love*
What is love? Honestly, I don't know anymore. However, I think what I experienced today was the closest thing to love I've ever felt.
Chris' mum invited me to his brother's Confirmation, so bright and early on a Sunday morning, Chris and I hop onto a train to ride 2 hours north (upstate) to Poughkeepsie... to go to CHURCH.
I must admit that I was nervous about going up. Chris' dad had already joked about my meeting the "in-laws", and I readied myself for meeting his grandma and grandpa. I could've done nothing to prepare myself for what happened. The whole family were so sweet! His grandma starting chatting with me like old friends the minute I walked through the door, and grandpa chatted with me whenever I was within earshot (and even when I was all the way across the room). His aunt was great too, and just seeing the whole family get along so well was just amazing.
I think the most important thing that hit me today was that his mum invited me to a very personal and intimate family affair. To be included in celebrating Chris' brother's Confirmation was incredible. The whole family were really warm and made me feel like one of them. It was so awesome.
I also realised that my time at church when I was younger and when I was in high school all came back to me today (Sunday). I have to honestly admit that I'm not all that familiar about the differences in being Christian or Catholic (I know there are differences). I think that being Christian and Catholic are similar, but I've never been comfortable among Christians and at Christian services. I felt no discomfort today at a Catholic church, even though I was the ONLY asian in the congregation. I can't explain it... but it was actually nice going to church.
Anyways, I just wanted to say that I felt loved today - by the family.
Feeling sad too... I have only 30 hours left until Chris leaves. Basically though, I won't be seeing much of him in the next 30 hours... I'll get to say bye to him on Tuesday morning and that'll pretty much be it. Do long-distance relationships ever work?~